WTF is Love?!?!

Recently, I've been having trouble figuring out what LOVE is...


What the fuck is love?


People say things like "We're gonna be together forever" "I'll love you no matter what" "You are my world" "You are the reason I live right now" and more but I mean, none of those words are TRUE. That's why people have to go through break-ups and heartbreaks.


Some people say "The One" is their true love. In my opinion, I don't think "The One" is your true love. The one you marry IS "The One" (I think)


I wanna tell a story about my parents.


They've been married for over 15 years now and they've had me and my sisters. My dad works everyday. My mom is a housewife. I've been watching my parents all my 15 years  and I realized something.


I've only seen my parents fight....... ONCE
and that was 5-6 years ago. It was one of those unnecessary fights but I remember, they didn't talk to each other for the whole day.


But since that day, I have never ever seen my parents fight or even argue about anything.


What I want to tell now is how I know my parents still love each other even now.


Recently, I have been seeing my parents together A LOT.


I've seen them holding hands in public.
I've seen them kiss by the door when my dad leaves for work.
I've seen them kinda mess around.
And I ALWAYS see them laughing together. :)


Even though I have seen my parents like this, I have one thing stuck in my head of what my mom told me.


A week ago, my mom and I was watching TV and they were talking about dating and choosing the right person. When the TV turned into a commercial, I asked my mom, "Was dad your type?" and this was her answer, "Not At All".


I was speechless. I've seen my parents lovey dovey and now my mom is telling me dad was never her type of guy but they still got married and had 3 kids and are still in love?!?!


I was confused but I might know why now since I've been writing this blog, I might have understood why my mom made that decision. 


Few things I learned here.


1. Love is not easy.
2. Love takes time.
3. Love is when two people have the same feelings for each other.

New School Year With New Shit

Hey 'yall :)


I haven't wrote a blog in a while...... (-_-;)


So yeah, I graduated Junior High school *thumbs up*
I'm finally gonna be in High school! (*.*)<(OMG!)


And to start my High school year fresh, I got shitloads of things! <3


First, I got the......................... Beats by Dr. Dre <3


Second, I got Nicki Minaj's new album, "Roman Reloaded: Deluxe Edition" <3


Third, I got shitloads of stationaries <3


Forth, I got few outfits <3


And on Friday, I'm going shopping for more shit <3




I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Happy, Happy, Happy

Today, I'm really happy :)


So, I got the score for Eiken today and guess who passed?!?!


ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I was screaming my head off when the score said "Pass" on it! :D


I couldn't believe it!!!!!!!! <3




Since last night, good things have been happening and I'm really happy :3


So last night.... I had a little "FUN" with a person I know :x


WARNING: I DID NOT LOOSE MY VIRGINITY


And today, I passed Eiken and then my family and my friend (Paige) have planned to go skiing on the 18th :) Which I'm so excited about :)


From Monday to Thursday, it's the exams but I haven't studied shit but I'm just so happy that I can't even think of the consequences of failing the exam :)


But I think I do need to study something so I shall study something.......... TOMORROW!


Night <3

Done with 9th Grade! (^w^)

Heyyy <3


So, today was the last day of classes for 9th grade! X3


I am SO HAPPY! <3


But that's not what I'm gonna talk about here cuz I don't like talking about school on my blog cuz it's BORING! (-3-) lol


Okay, here we go!


I just got home and I just had the URGE to write a love poem kind of thing so I did on Facebook <3


What made me want to do this was because...


I went to the 100 yen convenience store after school and I was walking down the aisle, when I saw a tall, thin, teenager. He kinda reminded me of someone but I didn't know who. Without doing a thing, I bought some shit and left the store. As I was heading home, I remembered who that guy reminded me of.


It was "N"...




So that's what happened............... (-_-)


I think I'm done here now :)




See ya <3

Embarrassment in English Class...

Hi...


I was very much embarrassed today in English class...


I was made to read my story in front of the whole class...


And I was the ONLY one who read...


Not only that but my story was about what happened in the train the other day but I added few fantasy parts and it was VERY EMBARRASSING...(●´3｀●)


After class, few people who were in my class passing by me would say "Jake" (which is the name I put for the guy in the train) and laugh... (-_-;)


I was so embarrassed that when I got home, I ate a WHOLE chocolate in about 10 min... (T_T)


I've had enough for today so I'm gonna head to bed now....


Night <3

Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day! <3


So once again, I spent my Valentines Day ALONE....


Just call me "FOREVER ALONE" -__-




But the good thing is, I got shitloads of chocolate and sweets from a lot of people :)


AND we only had 3 hours of classes today due to the English Speech Contest!


I got home today and just stuffed chocolate in my mouth and went on Ragestache and Damn LOL...


That is all I did tonight (y)




Right now, I'm wishing that some kind of miracle would happen but miracles don't happen that easily so I guess I'm gonna have to wait.... 




HOLY SHIT! LESS THEN A MONTH OF SCHOOL LEFT!!!!!!!!! X|


AND 2 WEEKS 'TILL THE SEMESTER TESTS!!!!!!!!! XS


SCREWED MUCH?           Y.E.S


AND NOW I JUST REALIZED THAT I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO THAT IS DUE FOR THIS THURSDAY.... FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK




kay, I've had enough for the day....


Night <3

Bloggin'

Seriously! I JUST WROTE A BLOG!


Yeah.... I'm acting weird now.... I just wrote a blog like 10 minutes ago and I'm already writing another one.... (;-_-)


Sign that says "I have no life"


I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >x<


The weird thing is, I don't LOVE him and I only saw him for like 10 min but I can't stop this feeling....


What the fuck is this feeling?!?!




Yeah..... I'm still blushing from writing the last blog... (•´mm｀•)


Oh yea.... I totally forgot....


So I was in the city today and this guy was handing out pocket tissues (which is normal in Japan) and he handed it SPECIFICALLY to me (◉_◉)


And when I took the pocket tissue, it was an advertisement for.....


"Sexy Thong-showing Bar"...


Really AWKWARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


He probably thought I was old and wanted me to work there or something..... (-_-;)




Besides that, everything was FUN :)


Went shopping in the city with a friend and got a new iPhone case and matching clothes :)


Then when I went to my grandma's place, I saw another friend at the station :)


Probably wrote everything that happened today...


Oh another thing...


My dad went to Paris today......


and I have Eiken test next Sunday......


yay..... -_-


BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE <3

Subway

Once a upon a time.....


nahh nevermind :\


So I was on the subway today going to my grandma's place when....


I saw a guy sitting in front of me....


He was in his school uniform....


Buttons half way down....


Listening to music....


Staring down at his book....




He was probably a High Schooler from the looks of his height and appearance...


I stared at him until.....


He lifted his head up....


And looked at me....


A little cute grin on his face...


I didn't know what to do but to look away....


He also did the same...


I was probably blushing....




First thing I noticed about him was.....


He wasn't Japanese....


He was a foreigner.....


AND....


A hot one too....




I kept my eyes on him....


I just couldn't get them off of him...




As the train was about to arrive at my station...


I stood up....




I noticed him looking at me....


I walked to the door as if I didn't notice him....


He kept staring at me....


The same way I stared at him....


I got off the train and I looked back.....




He was still looking at me....


<3

My Blog is Actually Being Read!

Heyyyy <3


Great News!!!!!!!!!!!


My blog is actually being read by someone! :D
I always thought it was never being read by anyone cuz it's boring and pointless but I just found out that my camp friend, Rachel, reads them all the time :D
THANKS RACHEL <3


Okay, hmmm......


School is over in a month or so...
Sister's Piano Recital is this Saturday...
I might hang out with a friend on Sunday...


yeah... that's about it for this week... :P


OMG! I passed the Part 1 of Eiken Pre-1 Test!!!!!!!!!!<3


I AM SO HAPPY! So next weekend, I have the Part 2 of the Eiken Pre-1 Test which is Speaking and I think I'll be okay with this one cuz I speak English to my bestfriend (Paige) every single day :)


Oh yeah! It's been SNOWING in Nagoya lately! Apparently, it's rare for Nagoya to snow... o_O But it's pretty awesome having now here :) But it gets SOOOOOOOOO COLD!!!!!!!!! x|


It's 11:30 so I think I'll go to bed (_ _)..zZZ


Night <3

I fucking....... UGH!

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:[


I'm fucking pissed and sad at the same time.......!


I'm about 100% sure that my (USED TO BE) best friends are ignoring me! (school)


Like WTF did I do?!?!?!


Now, I don't even want to go back to where I used to live!


So whenever someone is online, I message them and what I get everytime is, WAIT FOR FEW HOURS, AND THEN OFFLINE!


EVERYONE PROBABLY TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT ME AND IS MOVING ON WITH THIER HIGH SCHOOL LIFE.... -_-


I'M NEVER GOING BACK TO THAT SCHOOL. PERIOD!


NOW I'M JUST FUCKING PISSED! >:[ FORGET ABOUT THAT "SAD" PART! FUCK YOU! I FUCKING HATE YOU ALL! AND NO! I AM NOT ON MY 'MOTHER FUCKING NATURE'! THIS IS MY TRUE FEELING RIGHT NOW!


UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


NOW, I JUST WANT THEM ALL TO FORGET ABOUT ME AND MAKE IT SEEM LIKE WE NEVER EVER MET!


but to all the other people in US who is actually my friend, I will visit someday :)


I'VE HAD ENOUGH FOR THE NIGHT >:[


BYE mlm

Stereo Hearts

Stereo Hearts is my favorite song right now!!!!!!!!!! <3

Just had to let everyone know that ;)

KBYEEEEEEEEEEEE <3

Why....?

Hey guysssssss :)


So I've been thinking recently........................................


So the guy I've been having a crush on........................ <---- what I'm gonna talk about today


On the last minute of 2011, I confessed my love for him on my facebook status but I'm not sure if he saw it or not.... and even before that, he stopped talking to me..... we don't chat anymore and I feel like we don't know each other at all anymore..... and now whenever he's online, I want to talk to him but I'm scared to get ignored...... What should I do?????


And for all I know, the only person who's gonna read this is gonna be Paige and no one else so it doesn't really matter but I just needed to tell someone so I'm good for now.....


I hope I get an answer to this question :)


And I hope he will actually start replying to my chats..... :)


Bye guysssssssssssssssssssss <3

Because Paige Is Making Me Write This Blog

Hey 'y'all!


I haven't wrote in a while but since my bffl is f*cking annoying as f*ck, I'm writing this blog... -_-


Oh yeah, Happy New Years! <3 It's already 2012! o.O


So right now, I'm in Kyoto, visiting my grandma <3


And I made my new years resolution like yesterday :p


So this year, I am gonna get a boyfriend, good grades and probably loose my virginity ;)


In few more months, I'm gonna be a f*cking high schooler! Honestly, I feel as old as my mother now... And I'm just about to finish Junior High... Jeez, time goes slow... *tik tok*


I seriously need a boyfriend! If I don't get a boyfriend soon, I might have to turn into a hoe and fuck every guy I meet.... @.@ That's how desperate I am! (;-.-)


And I also need good grades! My last semester's grades weren't that good so my parents got really upset and they might have to put me into Cram School which is popular in Japan but I think Cram School is just a waste of time and money.


Virginity................... yeah I'm not gonna talk about that................... :x


So I think I'm done for now :)


see ya <3


P.S. - Paige, I hope you enjoyed it (y)